I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul. ~ W.E. Henley

Hakuna Matata isn't Working for Me

spon·ta·ne·i·ty [spòntə n ətee, spòntə náy ətee]
noun
1. unconstrained behavior: behavior that is natural and unconstrained and is the result of impulse, not planning
2. generation from within: the generating or provoking of activity from within, rather than as a result of external influences
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This noun is not doing wonders for me in my current predicament.  Disaster is looming.  My lifestyle of carefree chill chill state of mind is starting to make a mess of life.  This all seem cute and cool when your 19 or 21 but I eventually found out and realized this can not go on forever or I will end up clueless and regretful.


Need to get my big ass working my goals and to just stop staring at them.  I need to get organized, this life is no longer funny.


How you define failure is really something relative and subjective.  To me, not feeling good about myself is a sign of failure.  I always pick myself up but most of the time I find my efforts of rehabilitation wanting of drive.


If worrying gets things going, then I will practice being a worry wart.


Please pray for me, a self confessed procrastinator.