Prayer for Protection

Princes shall come out of Egypt,
Ethiopia shall stretch forth her
hand unto God. Oh thou God
of Ethiopia, thou God of divine
majesty, thy spirit come within our
hearts to dwell in the pasts of righteousness.
That the hungry be fed,
the sick nourished, the aged protected,
and the infant cared for. Teach us
love and loyalty as it is in Zion.

Single Woman's Prayer

Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray for a man who's not a creep.

One who's handsome, smart and strong,
Who's not afraid to admit when he is wrong.

One who thinks before he speaks.
When he promises to call, he doesn't wait six weeks.

I pray that he is gainfully employed,
Won't lose his cool when he's annoyed.

Pulls out my chair and opens my door,
Massages my back and begs to do more.

Oh send me a man who will make love to my mind.
Know what to say when I ask "How fat is my behind?"

One who'll make love till my body's a' itchin'
He brings ME a sandwich too, when he goes to the kitchen.

I pray that this man will love me to no end,
And never compare me to my best friend.

Thank you in advance and now I'll just wait,
For I know you will send him before it's too late.

Amen

- Author Unknown

Make Me an Instrument of Your Peace

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love,
Where there is injury, pardon
Where there is doubt, faith,
Where there is despair, hope,
Where there is darkness, light,
Where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much
seek to be consoled as to console,
not so much to be understood as to understand,
not so much to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
it is in dying that we awake to eternal life.

- St. Francis of Assisi

I just got my tshirt from the presidentof our class. I got it late, its supposed to be worn for intramurals to represent the law department, anyway intrams bores me, so its ok.. Funny how the print says "Pain Has a Purpose". Makes me think of all the pains i went through. Some of which still feels sore, some are just distant memories, some i shudder remembering. I do agree that pain does have a purpose, its just that we often times dwell too much on the hurt and suffering it brings. The anguish, sorrow, tears, sleepless nights, and trauma these pains bring make us not want to be in the same disposition ever again. Question, do we get the purpose? I think not. There is so many songs, poems, art and etc. that express the pain the artists feel, but rarely do you hear or see a contemplation or an understanding of that pain. I personally havent seen anyone in gratitude for the pain while in pain. Oh maybe physical pain being welcomed(self inflicted or otherwise) but welcoming the pain is different from understanding and accepting why it happens. But no one in their right mind would choose to be in pain, i mean do u? Ive welcomed pain but i didnt really understand fully or if given a more beneficial choice I wouldnt choose pain. Im thinking, I should post this phrase in my room, noh? It should be a reminder that though I might be in pain, this has a purpose? The question is, is the pain for better or for worse? I guess I'll have to find out after the pain subsides.

Hmmm lemme list my current pains and evaluate which of them I seems to bring a good purpose. In no particular order and category:

• not sleeping 8hrs a day
• the long list of cases i have to read AND understand
• my tight panties
• my hagard look (its a pain for women u know)
• migraine (pota tlga to)
• pressure to pass a 75% passing rate (hayoooop!!!!!!!)
• a complicated love life (fling lang)
• lvl 48 pa rin ang character ko sa RF
• no income
• wlang boylet (frustrated sexlife hahahha)

For now this is the list i can come up with.. I dont think there's anything too painful here, noh? Im thankful I dont have that many pains and its not at all seeping and tearing me apart. Mai purpose ba lahat? How bout the sexlife thingy? hahahhaha Thank you Lord, mahal mo tlga ako.. Try it, list down ur pains, maybe ull see or atleast understand its purpose..

Again im facing the neverending battle between me and myself.. Its always been like this, even way before I knew this is a war all of us really face on a daily basis. Me against me, isabeau vs isabeau.. Will I ever win, and if i do who is deemed victorious? GAGA!! eh di ikaw pa rin.. hayss me and my gaganess.. Its the usual evil side vs good side, i think.. hehehe But sometimes i dont know who's side im in, both of them are parts of me so inherent to who i am.. if one looses, half of me looses right? So technically its a draw? Why do i have to over analyse things, huh? me and my brain, so full of crap.. hahhaha But what am I aiming for in fighting myself, or in accepting this inner war? I hope to be in full control of who I am, no when to cast the evil me and good me.. Control is key in self actualization.. hayss words i say, i dont even understand sometimes.. why is happiness so, so distant? and i leave with that question.. good luck to everyones fight.